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I'm sure sure what to do. Frankly I have not been sleeping well and I'm a bit of a basket case.

Most times when I close my eyes I feel myself on the ground looking up at people staring at me, bathed in the headlights of the bus looming behind me.

Pleasant.

I keep jolting awake, I'm just not sleeping

So I went to my doctor, he has no appointments until Thursday.
They won't take me in to see another doctor.
The wlk in clinic would have been a 90 minute wait.

I have no fucking clue as to what I want to do to fix this.

Honestly, I want some fucking sleeping pills for a week and see if my brain sorts itself out.

I really feel like I'm weak. I know I counsel people in this situation, and I don't think ill of them, but this is me! I feel like I'm weak for letting the experience imprint on my mind so thoroughly.

Back to work...