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[waterspyder]

I'm sure sure what to do. Frankly I have not been sleeping well and I'm a bit of a basket case.

Most times when I close my eyes I feel myself on the ground looking up at people staring at me, bathed in the headlights of the bus looming behind me.

Pleasant.

I keep jolting awake, I'm just not sleeping

So I went to my doctor, he has no appointments until Thursday.
They won't take me in to see another doctor.
The wlk in clinic would have been a 90 minute wait.

I have no fucking clue as to what I want to do to fix this.

Honestly, I want some fucking sleeping pills for a week and see if my brain sorts itself out.

I really feel like I'm weak. I know I counsel people in this situation, and I don't think ill of them, but this is me! I feel like I'm weak for letting the experience imprint on my mind so thoroughly.

Back to work...

Comments

[zenten.livejournal.com]

*snuggles*

Will tonights planned activities be a problem for this?

[waterspyder.livejournal.com]

I don't know
Chances are I'll fall asleep soundly.

[zenten.livejournal.com]

Hopefuly *hugs*

[waterspyder.livejournal.com]

I don't like feeling like this.

[zenten.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I know you don't, but it's nothing to be ashamed of.

[corradus.livejournal.com]

Well, you need some sort of relaxant or sopporific that's for sure....the traditional ones are alcohol and cannabis, but I think you're on meds so booze is out.

Know anyone with some pot?

Man I can't begin to imagine how rotten that is...to approach sleep and be denied it...

[oni-neko.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[panthertriad.livejournal.com]

there are also homeopathic remedies. Nutmeg for instance. An ounce of nutmeg will put you in a coma for 24-48 hours... A spoonfull will put you to sleep, mixed with warmed milk(which contains yet another sedative).

[waterspyder.livejournal.com]

I uhh, have some in my kitchen.

[evilbitchqueen.livejournal.com]

This might sound stupid but...

have you slept in the same bed (and I mean sleep) with josh or anyone else since this happened? If not it might be something you want to try doing, because you may feel less anxiety over the incident by having someone you trust there with you when you are trying to fall asleep.

[waterspyder.livejournal.com]

still happened