I had kept this to myself, but since you think it's over, here was my two cents

[waterspyder]

You know what.

Mel, I don't know what perceived slight I have committed against you, but I'm not out to get you as you seem to think. If you would prefer it, I can just not speak to you.

Personally, I don't think Spain is part of "the mediterranean" in a cultural sense. Sorry if you don't like my opinion.

Personally, I thought it was a poor career move for you to ask a festival organizer if you should bother to apply next year. Sorry if you don't like my opinion.

I'm sorry if you feel hurt that I don't agree with your linguistic changes to my documents and letters. Just ignore the fact that I have a degree in English and work freelance as an editor, but bear with me...

Personally, I don't feel that everyday happenings warrant immediate newsflash coverage, and believe me, you are not the only person who does it, your example (which I found out it was yours later on) just happened to be a recent example. That's great that you find human tragedy so intruiging. I'm sorry that you don't feel that you can feel like you can approach me with things.

I'm sorry you think I have no confidence in you.

I'm sorry my opinions offend you so much.

I'm sick of playing this game where you get mad at me and I really don't know why, sometimes I have a clue, but mostly you just shut up and sulk and let the world wonder what the hell just happened. I'm not perfect, but I'm also not a fucking clairvoyant. I'm tired of walking on eggshells wondering if the next thing I say is going to shatter you. So either the passive aggressive bullshit gets canned, or we should just stop pretending.

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hey look - it's over.

[fetichista.livejournal.com]

it's not like any of this means anything anymore, but i might as well comment anyway.

1) re: festival - i blew up at you because i was frustrated. noted that i was out of line. apologized and thanked you for giving me advice.

2) i meant that EVERYONE gives me critiques on EVERRYTHING (or almost) in my life, in my music "career", for Vday (no, you never commented on Vday, but this was referring to everyone else). i just can't take criticism from you. and maybe i'm sensitive. and maybe you're not tactful. and maybe both. but your critizing made me feel shitty (as opposed to making me feel as though there's always room for improvement) and lately, it had been irritating the heck out of me.

3) kerry i didn't want to make things this ugly. but since when have you been walking on eggshells??? i just thought you were being knit-picky and annoying. we didn't need to be friends anymore. but now, unless it has something to do with "agitate" or the WRC, i don't even want to talk to you anymore.

Re: hey look - it's over.

[waterspyder.livejournal.com]

3) Every time you ask my opinion on something, what am I supposed to say? I always chose honesty. Sorry if truth hurts.
I'll keep our dealings businesslike.